Finally results came out !

So i don know whether i am lucky or sui siao, cos i get to save 8 months to retake, however i will have to refer on 30 october.
that is damm scary, i am so freak out that the first thing i do is to call up JOEL to help me.

But after i work with the sampling company i learned a new thing from my boss, tension and pressurize myself is not a solution to my problem, i need a plan and stratergy to deal with the problem.

So i need all the help i can get and most of all i need to really spend time studying without any other disraction this time.


But well what is done is done, what had happen cannot change but the future can be change if we try harder. I don want to fail again. i don want people to be dissapointed with me.
I want people to cheer for me when i am success.

OK i know there are dozens of you are referring with me lets work this out together and to those of you who have to re-take the whole program, man i wanna you to know this, 'what you do now is what you are going to face in the future'. So think carefully what do you really want.
If you cannot understand what i say go study the book 7 habits by R Covey.

Wish all of you good luck and take good care of yourself.
No more worries and start planning.
thanks fey for helping me on tips to plan my study, and thanks to Joel who will try to help me as far as he can i know he will. La i know you are going through this with me thx for ur companion.

Well my war started now. > 5 4 3 2 1 >>>tetetetetetetetetete, boom boom, tetetetetetete boom boom boom . all of the lecturer in uk boom boom reload reload tettetetete

Stop waiting !

Have been blogging so much on sh recently, sure a lot of cursing started since i make as if my gf is my whole life and my friend don seem to be important anymore.
Hey no la i still miss all of you, its just not much hanging out with u people cause me lost track of what happening to all of you.

I am having this job as a project supervisor in penang for a sampling company ,if you are wondering what is a sampling company it is a company who help major company like nescafe do sampling in supermarket.(and ya never shopping this much before since i always have to travel to all supermarket at my area) This is the first time i do this kind of job, and ya i know i did it again a job that have no relevant to my life or past experience before.
but as you all know i like to try new things.

THx to mei ying who introduce me to that company, but very tensiao la on the 1st day i am so lost and tensed, time is tickling and i cannot get people to work, and lorry sending supply to me late. it is a total disaster. well i think living like this 10 days i will sure die without doubt.
la,jo and the rest that i din mention hope all of u are in great shape.

OH for all of you who don understand the title stop waiting, i was just telling my friend that i am updating myself so no need to wait anymore.

Birthday without whole piece of cake is not bad to me since got my darling accompany me.

she is my angel, my sun, my moon and my star.

even she is away in KL but she is never apart from my heart.

have been Tension !

two days of tension, long time never feel like this tensioned already. A person give me a last minute job. and i cannot secure the job feel so lost, don know what to do.

Everytime i feel lost i think of ling, cause she can calm me down no matter how lost i am.
I guess i am not so lucky everytime i think.
and i will think twice before i take up a job next time.
it does not seem as simple as it is. or maybe i am not suitable for this job.

But when i tension i like to think that it is not that worst, i also don know to me what is really worst. but i know i still have friends and family and my darling who love me.
so not that bad afterall.

Fly away !

A letter yo my friend who are leaving after taking the result :

No matter how heavy to let go,
The sun will have to give way to the moon.
The sun do not shine accord to our will,
But the scenery under the sun shall be remember always.

To all of my friend, i will remember all of you, and the great time i share with all of you.

Beribu bintang dilangit Kini menghilang
Meraba aku dalam kelam
Rembulan mengambang Kini makin suram
Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah
Sedetik wajahmu muncul Dalam diam

Ada kerdipan ada sinar Itukah bintang atau rembulan
Terima kasih kuucapkan
Izinkan ku mencuri bayangan wajahmu
Izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu
Maafkanlah oh...

Andai lagu ini Mengganggu ruangan hidupmu
Kau senyumlah oh...
Sekadar memori Kita di arena ini
Kau ilhamku Kau ilhamku..

Well life is not so cruel on me afterall i guess !

There is still FRIENDS who cares bout me, My family are not that bad too i guess.
the problem lies within me is the biggest problem, i tend to takes thing negatively.
i am too easy to get dissapointed and my brain show the worst of everything.
but hey how worst can it be right???

7 habits i s the book that i am banging my head on recently, Learning on how to think, do, feel things the way they should be.
I realised that i have been holding on people around me rather than myself all the while. when i always think too much for other people's sake i am actually running away from my own problem.
I try to hide and avoid until all of my problem get out of hand, than only i started to tension and find all sort of reason to cover up my mistake, In the end i suffered alone.

I have friends and family who cares for me, The problem is i keep ignoring them because i scared to show my weaknesses. But hey i really care for you people too.

I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby, I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to being lucky he's cursed
When it come to loving me he's worst
I still want you by my side

Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure going to give you a try
And if you want I'll try to love again (tryyy)
Baby, I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to being lucky he's cursed
When it come to loving me he's worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
'Cause if you want I'll try to love again (try to love again)

Baby, I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know, the first cut is the deepest
When it come to being lucky he's cursed

When it come to loving me he's worst
The first cut is the deepest baby i know
The first cut is the deepest try to love again...

1 st day.

Darling 1st day in college, i sent her by my self today, but after sent her i rush out sunway immediatly scared that my tears will burst out. knowing that have to leave her there by herself without any friends there its like thousand of needles nail into my heart.

but what can i do???? she have to grow up and be strong.
on my way back to penang i cry like i never do since don know when.

but what can i do ???? it will be harder for me to leave if i stay a few days more, she will be too depend on me.

what can i do??? Other than praying and hope for the best.

darling be strong, be strong !

Can anyone see that i am yelling???
can anyone notice that i am in pain????
her lap top is not prepared she is alone and i cannot chat with her.
somebody save me.

Should we feel lucky???

A Squirrel's Tale REST OF THE WORLD VERSION: The squirrel works hard in the withering heat all summer long, building and improving his house and laying up suppliesfor the winter. The grasshopper thinks he's a fool, and laughs and dances and plays the summer away. Come winter,the squirrel is warm and well fed. The shivering grasshopper has no food or shelter, so he dies out in the cold.

THE END

ThE U.K. VERSION: The squirrel works hard in the withering heat all summer long, building his house and laying up supplies for the winter. The grasshopper thinks he's a fool, and laughs and dances and plays the summer away. Come winter, the squirrel is warm and well fed. A social worker found the shivering grasshopper, calls a press conference and demands to know why the squirrelshould be allowed to be warm and well fed while others less fortunate, like the grasshopper, are cold and starving.The BBC shows up to provide live coverage of the shivering grasshopper; with cuts to a video of the squirrel in his comfortable warm home with a table laden with food. The British press inform people that they should be ashamed that in a country of such wealth, this poor grasshopper is allowed to suffer so while others have plenty. The Labour Party, Greenpeace, Animal Rights and The Grasshopper Council of GB demonstrate in front of the squirrel's house. The BBC, interrupting a cultural festival special from Notting Hill with breaking news, broadcasts a multi cultural choir singing "We Shall Overcome". Ken Living stone rants in an interview with Trevor McDonald that the squirrel got rich off the backs of grasshoppers, and calls for an immediate tax hike on the squirrel to make him pay his "fairshare" and increases the charge for squirrels to enter inner London.

In response to pressure from the media, the Government drafts the Economic Equity and Grasshopper Anti Discrimination Act, retroactive to the beginning of the summer. The squirrel's taxes are reassessed. He is taken to court and fined for failing to hire grasshoppers as builders for the work he was doing on his home and an additional fine for contempt when he told the court the grasshopper did not want to work. The grasshopper is provided with a council house, financial aid to furnish it and an account with a local taxi firm to ensure he can be socially mobile. The squirrel's food is seized and re distributed to the more needy members of society, in this case the grasshopper. Without enough money to buy more food, to pay the fine and his newly imposed retroactive taxes, the squirrel has to downsize and start building a new home. The local authority takes over his old home and utilises it as a temporary home for asylum seeking cats who had hijacked a plane to get to Britain as they had to share their country of origin with mice.

On arrival they tried to blow up the airport because of Britain 's apparent love of dogs. The cats had been arrested for the international offence of hijacking and attempt bombing but were immediately released because the police fed them pilchards instead of salmon whilst in custody. Initial moves to then return them to their own country were abandoned because it was feared they would face death by the mice. The cats devise and start a scam to obtain money from peoples credit cards. A Panorama special shows the grasshopper finishing up the last of the squirrel 's food, though spring is still months away, while the council house he is in, crumbles around him because he hasn't bothered to maintain the house. He is shown to be taking drugs. Inadequate government funding is blamed for the grasshopper 's drug ' illness '."

In response to pressure from the media, the Government drafts the Economic Equity and Grasshopper Anti DiscriminationAct, retroactive to the beginning of the summer. The squirrel's taxes are reassessed. He is taken to court and fined for failing to hire grasshoppers as builders for the work he was doing on his home and an additional fine for contempt when he told the court the grasshopper did not want to work.The grasshopper is provided with a council house, financial aid to furnish it and an account with a local taxi firm to ensure he can be socially mobile. The squirrel's food is seized and re distributed to the more needy members of society, in this case the grasshopper.Without enough money to buy more food, to pay the fine and his newly imposed retroactive taxes, the squirrel has to downsize and start building a new home. The local authority takes over his old home and utilises it as a temporary home for asylum seeking cats who had hijacked a plane to get to Britain as they had to share their country of origin with mice.

On arrival they tried to blow up the airport because of Britain 's apparent love of dogs. The cats had been arrested for the international offence of hijacking and attempt bombing but were immediately released because the police fed them pilchards instead of salmon whilst in custody. Initial moves to then return them to their own country were abandoned because it was feared they would face death by the mice. The cats devise and start a scam to obtain money from peoples credit cards. A Panorama special shows the grasshopper finishing up the last of the squirrel's food, though spring is stillmonths away, while the council house he is in, crumblesaround him because he hasn't bothered to maintain the house. He is shown to be taking drugs. Inadequate government funding is blamed for the grasshopper's drug 'illness'.

The cats seek recompense in the British courts for their treatment since arrival in UK . The grasshopper gets arrested for stabbing an old dog during a burglary to get money for his drugs habit. He is imprisoned but released immediately because he has been in custody for a few weeks. He is placed in the care of the probation service to monitor and supervise him. Within a few weeks he has killed a guinea pig in a botched robbery. A commission of enquiry, that will eventually cost £10, 000, 000 and state the obvious, is set up. Additional money is put into funding a drug rehabilitation scheme for grasshoppers and legal aid for lawyers representing asylum seekers is increased. The asylum seeking cats are praised by the government for enriching Britain 's multicultural diversity and dogs are criticised by the government for failing to befriend the cats. The grasshopper dies of a drug overdose. The usual sections of the press blame it on the obvious failure of government to address the root causes of despair arising from social inequity and his traumatic experience of prison. They call for the resignation of a minister. The cats are paid a million pounds each because their rights were infringed when the government failed to inform them there were mice in the United Kingdom . The squirrel, the dogs and the victims of the hijacking, the bombing, the burglaries and robberies have to pay an additional percentage on their credit cards to cover losses, their taxes are increased to pay for law and order and they are told that they will have to work beyond 65 because of a shortfall in government funds.

THE END

This was a story for those who fond of UK and try to tell their friends that they are foreigners because they have been there for a few months.
Pathetic enough since they admired UK so much and don even know that they are called 'Gaizen' (the outsider a japanese words) over there and like to be ruled by such a funny government under blair and admire him as a gentleman, I admire him as a gentle-man though.

funniest part???
They try to impress people over here as being a gaizen and trying to become a gaizen in their own country.

Again this is a joke, but i am not a joker ok???
This was post not mean to point finger at anyone ! it is just a social phenomenom that i noticed recently not by only certain group but also others.

My Hari Kebangsaan slogan.
I AM A PROUD MALAYSIAN AND I AM ' WALKING TALL '.
I leave as a MALAYSIAN and come back as a MALAYSIAN.

smart or smarter ???

Recently news are often full of the picture of Khairy, due to he adviced his father-in-law that is pklh.
Everyone is making such a big deal out of it and to me its just a joke. why???
Answer is damm simple. what is wrong if MR khai is a smart guy and being able to give good idea on how to develope the country???
or everyone is expecting pklh 's daughter to get a dumb ass to become her husband so that he can just keep his mouth shut on everything and just concentrate on making children???
it is not wrong to have a smart guy as husband or as a son-in-law right???
But i think some politician want pklh to have some bunch of dumb ass behind him so that they are not able to provide beneficial idea and he will collapsed before the next election even started.
so this is bullshit.
The famous Trump once said : smart people are those people who will listen to smart advice.
don this saying too can be apply in Malaysia. or we rather choose to say we should think that we are the smartest and should only take our own idea as the best idea regardless of the truth of it.

And the almost famous blogger Mr OOI who make his hobby out of providing info on people's private business and life. Do you think that you will have a stake on ecm by buggering dato K???
tell you what Jeff, you can wait till next life. And ya send me your daughter's wedding invitation card so that i can put it on my blog and hope people will get interested with it. but hey jeff you are not that famous as a blogger so sorry if no one is interested.

Oh ya for viewer's information i post this up because i feel that all this is a very entertaining joke and hope all of you enjoy it as a joke.