Why you shoudn't quit !

One day I decided to quit...I quit my job,
my relationship, my spirituality...

I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me..."Look around", He said.

"Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied."When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.

I gave them light.I gave them water.The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor.

Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.

But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year
the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.

But I did not quit on the bamboo He said.
"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit.
In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed.

"I would not quit."

He said."Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.

Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...

But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots.
Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."
He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots"

"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you.

"So don't compare yourself to others" He said.

"The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern.

Yet they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can" I answered
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and bring back this story.
I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never Give up Friends.

I am a coward and i don't mind being one !

Its so unbelievable a girl feel guilty for dumping me 4 years ago want to compensate me by sleeping with me and she put it as a dare. hahaha
The conver start like this.

g: hi, wah always see you online hor??
me: ya
g: how is your honey???
me: i don call my dear honey. (MYOB)
g: oh like that ar??? why???? scared of remember me.
me : haha very funny
g: i am so sorry for hurting you last time for twice.
me: its the past.
g: how is your relationship with she??
me: superb since i treat my gf like princess and she treat me well too.
g: it is such a waste never let you kiss me last time.
me: hahaha very funny
g: well if you still have feeling for me now i dare you.
me: wow is it a dare???
me: Too bad i have stop become a hero for a long time edi.
g: well i still owe you once.
me: ok so lets just keep it that way, its bettter than if i owed you.
me: anyway i am kind of tired now. so tata.
( This is only an illustration for some fun don take this seriously )

Hey comeon its 4 years ago do she think that i was really so into her???
Oh my god man do i looked so dumb to jeopardize my relationship with my dearest to just enjoy the few minutes of fun with her???
Girl Save it for other dumb ass.

And ya of course i am a coward when it come to jeopardise my relationship with my darling.
i have become a hero too much of a time, what is wrong for being coward this time right???
plus after sh come into my life i have stop being a hero for quite some time already.
I am even afraid to pick up a 'fire'. But hey let's keep this as a secret i don want people to start bullying me now. i don want to become a hero other than to protect myself or my family including my brothers.

Darling i really love you. so don't worry i won't get trapped. unless trapped by you. hehehehe
ling coming back on this friday hahaha yeah yeah yeah.

Well not much of a change !

OK i have good reason to blog less.
i am struggling with my study now, its true, master Joel send me text on what to read almost everyday and i am trying very hard to finish everything in time.
hey i have to be damm well prepared this time , no more chance to play the full or push my luck.

don ask why i already paid RM 3177.50, we it either live or die this time.
namo amitabha hope pu sa will help me and give me better energy and memory to finish everything and memorize them. i don want to freak out in exam hall.

Fey i know you are in good condition so keep it up. i will definately pray for u and u have all my support, Joel i found that even me and sh are apart but believe or not spiritually we are getting closer so not much to worry, its a very good chance to let u learn to treasure what u have.
Hey i am here with u mar, give her a big suprise and unforgettable memory on christmas ok??
La hope u are in good condition ! we miss u.

that's all, i hope after exam i will feel good because i have done ok. i must study hard !

Struck by porcupine !

I was struck on my back by porcupine spines recently , As a cat that live with tigers for so long, this is a new thingy for me. I am so badly injured, i think my heart was as badly injured as the famous crocodile hunter that just past away.

This animal that protect itself with its spines is always afraid of being attack by other animals so it try to attack with its spine whenever it can . well i afraid this time the victim is me the stupid cat who thought itself is a tiger and try to leave the forest is attacked by this 'big' porcupine.

Eventhough the injury is not fatal, but you cannot imagine the harm done, i will be afraid of porcupine for the rest of my life.

well if those who don't recognise porcupine i will upload its photo soon.
This is just an illustration, just a joke so all of my friend please don't and don't take this seriously especially ryan.
well fey is leaving to shanghai soon, i wish all the best to you and i will be right here waiting.

Today will be my 1st day to class that is just started.
Glad to get to hang out with joel they all again, hope this new year won't have as much issue as the previous one.
La all the best the airplane have deported i guess, well new experience is there waiting for you so enjoy it ok???

If i am allowed to return.

Its hard, but still have to let go, well i really hope that you will graduate with me but life don't allow that. but still i believe i will always be kept some place deep inside your heart.
there is so much that i wanna tell you, so much places that we can go, so much food that i wanna share with you, if i am allow to go back, i shall be there everytime you needed me.
if only i could go back to the past.

keep yourself warm in the winter,
look at some of our old picture shall help you to do so.
when you miss us, please do let us know.
because we miss you too.

We love you !

Just a little girl, big imagination
Never letting no one take it away
Went into the world, what a revelation
She found there's a better way for you and me to be

Look for the rainbow in every storm
Find out for certain love's gonna be there for you
You'll always be someone's baby
Goodbye my friend
(I know you're gone, you said you're gone but I can still feel you here)
It's not the end
(You gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)

So glad we made it, time will never change it,
no noNo no no no
(You know it's time to say goodbye)
No no no no

The times when we would play about
The way we used to scream and shout
We never dreamed you'd go your own sweet way
Look for the rainbow in every storm

Find out for certain love's gonna be there for you
You'll always be someone's baby
Goodbye my friend
(I know you're gone, you said you're gone but I can still feel you here)
It's not the end
(You gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)

So glad we made it, time will never never ever change it
No no no no
(You know it's time to say goodbye)
No no no no
(And don't forget you can rely)
No no no no
(You know it's time to say goodbye and don't forget on me you can rely)
No no no no
(I will help, help you on your way)
No no no no
(I will be with you every day)
No no no no...