have been Tension !

two days of tension, long time never feel like this tensioned already. A person give me a last minute job. and i cannot secure the job feel so lost, don know what to do.

Everytime i feel lost i think of ling, cause she can calm me down no matter how lost i am.
I guess i am not so lucky everytime i think.
and i will think twice before i take up a job next time.
it does not seem as simple as it is. or maybe i am not suitable for this job.

But when i tension i like to think that it is not that worst, i also don know to me what is really worst. but i know i still have friends and family and my darling who love me.
so not that bad afterall.