Might as well as cheating !

Yes i am a jerk for running through every of her mail without letting her know. but i just cannot stop doing so looking at all the mail again and again. all the thorough question about him, sometimes i think she know more about him than she does on me. all i could do is to lit my cigarette.

Guess i am just a necessity, getting used to having me, do she really care bout me more than she does on him???? hahaha. big question mark. tears could run in my eyes when i realised it. but what else can i do???

i just don understand. why can't i own the whole heart of her, why do i have to share her heart???? by being a member of LSI, i know i could win any girl's heart with just a small trick that i have learn. i could pick any girl that interest me. but i just can't totally win her heart. am i a loser???? guess i am. no matter how hard i try.

why don i just be a jerk ????? guess he is always more impressive. no matter how many people think how smart i am. i am still a loser.

and mind you. i enjoy being one. just can't find the reason behind for being one.

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Econs !

Hmmmmm, my speculation was not so wrong after all. hahaha.
this is to prove to my friend who do not agreed to what i said 1 month ago. :
taken from nst :

“The US economy is undercapitalised.


An internal solution is usually one form of debt replaced with another.


The current proposals fall into this category.


“When the shell game runs out of options, printing money is the only way out. That will eventually lead to the US dollar collapsing and hyperinflation in the US economy.” From Xie’s standpoint, countries with big foreign exchange reserves, such as China, Japan, Kuwait, Saudi Arabia and the United Arab Emirates, should talk with the US and then “swap their US dollar assets in debt instruments like treasuries for equity assets like stocks”.

i am not an idiot after all. hahaha
ok more down here.

The US is reluctant to let foreigners become majority owners of its big financial institutions. But it may discover that it does not have a choice.


As Xie said: “The US still has an unrealistic view of itself. Even though the US is the largest debtor in the world, it behaves like the largest creditor. Americans may need much more hardship to change their attitude.” As for China, it should realise that self-interest dictates that it do everything possible to help resolve this global problem. All countries are in the same boat and no one can be shielded indefinitely from its ramifications.

( taken from Frank Ching in NST column )

Rainy days !

Been raining heavily outside, so many unexpected thing have happen lately. i always think that we are invulnerable, that we are above law and no one can touch us. until the call that could threaten us arrived and most who are involved in the case are caught.

Guess we are not so invulnerable after all. well you have to pay for what you do. that is the advise peter gave me. i have taken my position too seriously i guess.

well i think i should concentrate on my new found business more than others stuff.
my bro told me i have changed, i do not really take what i say seriously anymore.
i think growing up and gone through the process of meeting all sort of hypocrite could change a person, or maybe i am just trying to protect myself.

Hopefully this new business plan could help me make some money. and i could be myself again. is it that i am changing or people around me are.

Hope that sun will shine soon, and my darkness will turn bright.

for those who know the stories, don worry i am out of it. since i have not directly involved in the case. i am not that strong after all.

AMBER !

A tree resin that solidified and became fossilized, very powerful healer and cleanser that draws dis-ease from the body and promote tissue revitalization. it also cleans the environment and the chakras. well isn't it interesting.

Ok this is my idea, lets import 1000,000 of amber into malaysia and put it everywhere on our soil and all minister must put a big one at their home hahaha.
than malaysia will became more prosperous and peaceful.

Unity in our country have to be archieved at no matter what cause it takes.
well forget about the country, lets talk about myself .

Aku tak mengerti, apa yang kurasa
rindu yang tak pernah begitu hebatnya
aku mencintaimu lebih dari yang kau tau
meski kau takkan pernah tau

aku persembahkan hidupku untukmu
telah ku relakan, hatiku padamu
namun kau masih bisu, diam seribu bahasa
dan hati kecilku bicara

Reff :
baru kusadari cintaku bertepuk sebelah tangan
kau buat remuk sluruh hatiku

semoga aku akan memahami sisi hatimu yang beku
semoga akan datang keajaiban hingga kaupun mau

aku mencintaimu lebih dari yang kau tau
meski kau takkan pernah tau

this is how i felt. with human its really not about how much you sacrificed. its only about whether both of you are still destined to be together.

when it come to relationship, it is not a vending machine you put in money than the product that you desire pop out from it.

hahaha. life like that !
yang sepatutnya akan berlaku tetap berlaku, tidak kira masa, tempat ataupun kemahuan.

SUPRISE is coming up for our political scene, hang in there guys, wait and see !

Run out of luck ?????

916 have passed, nothing is changed. well what could i say according to my numerical calculation Mr A is not destined to become a leader of a country, ya ya probably everyone will say this is because 916 nothing happen and i am trying to act smart.

Anyway the luck part is just an opening i have no intention to share his destiny with all of you either.
This is i think the reason behind why 916 did not happen.

This is what the 31 jumper tell Anwar: If pak lah promised to dissolve parliament when all of us changed our party than we will jump. if not we will deny all the way that we have intention to jump.

anwar: i will force him to surrender without disclosing all your name.

pak lah : hahaha do not be funny i will not dissove parliament no matter what happen.

31 mp : too bad anwar we cannot help.

anwar : ok we wait for 3 more years.

me : hahaha after 3 years of struggling all anwar supporter will be too tired to do anything anymore.


above is all speculation. and speculation means its my guess only,

I am scared of ISA too.

Unbelievable !

I have been a strong Barisan Nasional supporter since Dr M's times. i too respect pak lah and still supporting barisan after Dr M. but guess all my support to BN will come to an end today. i beleive its time to abolish ISA. even though i use to support that it can help keep malaysia a more peaceful place.

Because today it have come to a time where ISA have been misused to put a reporter behind bars for a crime that have been commited by a umno member. i believe that the one who really try to cause racial dispute is the fat ugly guy and not this lady who have been detained.

i urge my friends, family and supporter to stop supporting the party that cannot differentiate between right and wrong, black and white.

i believe 916 if ever come true will not be a bad news anymore.
we do need a new government !

better get your facts right !

statement by Washington warning Malaysia against any "politically-motivated investigation or prosecution" into the sodomy case involving Anwar.

US State Department spokesman Tom Casey was quoted as saying that "it hoped there would not be a pattern" because Anwar had faced similar charges in 1998.


ya, you people like him so much, why don just bring him to your country and let him fuck the ass out of the brain of all your people. get the facts right ! malaysia government is not accusing him. its a citizen that lodged a police report ! what??
you assume because anwar is a opposition leader that our country should give him political immunity??? like your country give to those ass hole that have probably killed hundred and thoudsand of peoples getting immunity and protection because they are willing to sell out some of your enemy. hey sorry man. malaysia is not US we are a country governed under the rule of law. not the rule of clinton and monica. fuck you ! tom casey clean ur ass and wait for anwar.

Usually people won't change !

Why some people just like to feed their penis with shit ???

Hero konon !

Sorry i am not prepared to post the second and third part for new challenges yet, cause i don want to provide infomation that i am still not very certain.

Before i started this entry, i need to confesses something, i USED to be Dr M's fans when i was younger, the one who dare to speak up for asian country against all the mega western country, he is the man and my hero. maklumlah i am quite a patriotic, and no i am not a hypocrite.

Well of course i started the rubbish up there because i have something to share after i visited i could say the 'most respected' blogger's blog in Malaysia. yup not other than (kononnya) cerdik.com. yes and he is talking about his successor turning down the marvelous railway project he planned for the rakyat. Below is all my speculation it may be fiction so please do not sue me or catch me under ISA. have you people wonder why malaysia would never start any good plan for public transport 10 or 20 years ago?????

i will let you know why. Ok imagine this one day ( please i know you need very good imagination to do this but please try ) you do not have to drive anymore, you only need to walk less than 5 minutes to the nearest bus station and wait less than 10 minutes before the bus arrive. than after 15 minutes journey and phew ! you reach the train station and after 10 minutes you are in your work place, Do you think there is such thing call national car congesting the traffic of Malaysia?????

I really do not believe the car company start with a letter P can survive till 2010 (and you really believe Mr hero will allow that???) if he would, he must be a crazy old guy.
because as i know there will be without a person with sound mind who want to buy a vihicle made from what so called 'tin milo'. and oh ya, do you people believe petro--- only make money exporting fuel to other country, hey believe me they do make a lot putting fuel into your car. ( no doubt primax 3 is a good fuel i am just trying to be fair ). so when there is no public transport good enough to provide comfortable and reasonable ride to the public. you will have to get your own transport. If you cannot afford imported car.(not very good quality also, cause mostly are re-conditioned car) you can get a brand new 'kereta tin milo' with the price you can afford ( not really cheap also la and usually you pay for what you are not supposed to get) if you want to know how and why you pay too much for that car, email me teohsf@gmail.com i will let you know why. and basically because you are force to buy the car like everyone else the car company would not improve cause everyone is forced to buy the car.

And the real reason if again i speculated correctly why the train is not built is because there aren't any buses to get you to the nearest train station yet so basically you can either park your car in the station and take the train to work (trust me they would not let you get free car park), get someone to send you there or take a taxi there. so if you have a not so nice own vihicle and the petrol price is not as high as now, tell me honestly are you going to use the train. and if you are not going to use it do you believe those people around you are going to use that??????
unless Mr hero bin cerdik can know that the price for petrol can reach up to RM 2.70 per litre in back in 2004, god knows why is he planning for the built the double railway before preparing the bus to get people to the train station. (prbably just for him to take his grand children to visit around city)

It is in Uncle lah's period i can see all the rapid buses flowing around the town
( oh ya that day i even saw there is rapid buses in balik pulau). can Mr hero bin cerdik tell me that its actually his plan to have all the rapid bus to flow around nowadays ???? if he cannot , hey man when you have nothing to do why don't give some to your grand children la.
because i am worried that you cannot find a suitable pyjamas to go to the pyjamas party for bloggers by nuff nang like what kenny sia put you in before. you cannot go to a club with sarong only i think.